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goodbye note..... [12 Jun 2009|11:37pm] [ mood | good ] If I were to die one day and didn’t get the chance to say goodbye to everyone…… this would be it…. The goodbye note….. ( cruel world )   you might think that i crave for attention.... and the answer is yes..... i dont get any at home because my parents are working.... my sis and her husband are always out..... my dear friends are all busy with work, school or work.... im such a careless person at work..... that im always having fascade on..... my boyfriend loves me but he misses someone else..... so what do i get? nth..... so goodbye cruel world.... it was great fun while it lasted.....   0 Bitch it out ~

21st bdae.... [05 Jun 2009|09:57pm] [ mood | confused ] what do i want to do on my 21st bdae? how do i want my 21st bdae to be like? who do i want to spend my 21st bdae with? where do i want my 21st bdae held? so many questions and only one question.....ONLY ONE QUESTION is certain...... when? my 21st bdae is held on 17 oct 2009...... here and there.... im hearing ppl having parties here and there.... lil gatherings here and there..... for their 21st bdae..... how bout me? what am i to supposed to do on my 21st bdae? have a bdae party? as if..... i dont have a lot of friends..... dinner with family? i love it and them.... but i do that every bdae.... every... sister, mum, dad's bdae... same ol' same ol'.... im thankful that i still have them.... im not complaining.... im just saying i want something different..... how different you would ask? i dunnoe.... oh well.... maybe just stay at home.... and rot? since im having my annual leave that week..... hmmmmmmmmmm   0 Bitch it out ~

secret serenity [06 May 2009|11:18pm] [ mood | silly ] a secret place.... so nice and pretty.. out of the hustle and bustle of the city.... love this place... ( old skool... ) 0 Bitch it out ~

to all guys or girls out there..... [30 Mar 2009|11:23pm] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | chris brown and keri hilson - superhuman ] heard a story somewhere...... there lives a woman and a man.... just got happily married together..... the husband asked his wife... "what would you like for a gift?".... and the wife answered..... "i do not need a gift... im happy with what i have...."    so the husband didnt get her any gift for her bdae..... for christmas... for valentines..... 50 years later..... it clicked! the woman turned to a fucking dumbass fairy who doesnt want gifts...... the moral of the story is.... when a girl says she doesnt want a gift.... get her anyways.... when she says she's okay.... she's not..... when she says there's nothing .... there's always something wrong...... girls are fucking complicated.... its true..... i dont deny..... im a girl afterall... but.... just tell her that you care.... tell her that you love her..... eventhough you see her everyday.... tell her you miss her..... and love her.....  call or text  her in the middle of the night or day.... when she's working or sleeping... just a simple "im thinking of you and i love you"  is more than enough......eventhough the girl is already yours..... that doesnt mean you have to stop chasing her and dont bother to do all those nice things when you were chasing her......  and  the most important thing is...... show her you do care..... tell her you love her...... and never go out with your ex-es ever...... and treat her well..... call her or text her at random.... cherish the times with them..... like every second.......be there for her..... try your best to understand her..... because.... we girls... are still wondering whats in that head of yours guys.... so.... whoever reading this..... if you have a girlfriend or boyfriend.... grab that phone.... go call her/him up.... and say "i love you" ......... because you'll never know when he or she could be gone...... like gone forever..... SO be thankful for what you have..... 7 Bitch it out ~

its my annual leave and im all alone.... [18 Mar 2009|11:31pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | secondhand serenade - your call ] im still amazed by the animal world..... esp my cat, the fat fatimah..... guess im feeling down today..... and usually im the one dragging/pulling/grabbing/carrying her towards me..... *im not abusing her! i do it gently okay!!!* so that i get to cuddle her.... she doesnt usually comes to me unless i just got home from work tired or wants to play or want food.... but right now.... she's right beside me..... looking at me..... chilling with me.... when im feeling so down..... its like she telling me im always here for you...... gosh i love this fat cat..... 0 Bitch it out ~

~sigh [17 Feb 2009|09:30pm] [ mood | tired ] im so tired.... tired of my mum nagging..... tired of my patients complains..... tired of myself worrying bout random things...... im just fucking tired of caring...... sorry i cant be there during the girls outing.... sorry i cant be there during the 4e1 gathering...... work is taking my social life out of me..... it sucks....... mum's been nagging lately because i keep going out after work and so forth...... when else can i go out?? during my freaking off days?? when im all drained out?? sigh..... when im at home she nags why am i not doing anything at home but watch tv..... why am i not doing the laundry and so forth...... 1stly..... its my DAY OFF..... 2ndly...... they're not MY laundry.... they're YOURS...... sigh..... its good enough im not asking cash from them.... its good enough im not stealing from them neither am i going around stealing...... its good enough I DO come home and rest..... sigh.......and out of the sudden.... my sis is becoming the perfect daughter ALL OVER AGAIN.... well i dont blame her.... she's married..... BLEARGH! whatever.... everything i do is never fucking right...... im so tired..... complains from patients in the ward is like freaking rising..... IM SO FUCKING TIRED!!! i cant fucking please anyone anymore!!! not at work! not at home! not even with my social life!!! argh...... im so so so tired...... sigh..... tired of worrying bout things.... worrying about trust..... tired of believing..... tired of hoping... tired of insecurities...... tired of everything..... too tired to cry either..... im all drained out....  sigh.... what happened to the old days when i dont have to care abt anything.... sigh...... ~sigh... missing my bestie in aussie..... *that rhymes....* & my tweety bestie in woodlands *that rhymes again!* & all my other friends that i have been neglecting..... 2 Bitch it out ~

4 nights.... [12 Feb 2009|11:51am] [ mood | ~missing ] beautiful place by the beach..... hmmmm......good times..... sigh.... working 4 nights is a chore!!!! sigh..... so many things to do.... everyone asking to go out.... so little time!!! sigh..... anyways..... heavy pics ahead! -----> ( weee ) 0 Bitch it out ~

PASSED! [22 Jan 2009|11:30pm] [ mood | full ] ahhahaha finally passed my BTT.... hahaha yeah yeah... i know its very easy....but i just got no time to do it okay... screw me.....=P hmmmmm was bored.... and i think i finally found out whats my name meaning is.... syamimi - keharumanku - translation.... fragrance? ahahah my malay sucks.... atiqa - emancipated, a beautiful lady -link- or some other websites - ancient so what does it mean? ancient fragrance??? ahaahahahahah wtf..... or fragrance beautiful lady......hmmmmmmmm hahaah wth!!!! oh well.....  gtg.... my laptop is acting up..... 2 Bitch it out ~

hmmmmm [11 Jan 2009|10:50pm] [ mood | missing ] [ music | chris brown and keri hilson - superhuman ] wouldnt you believe that these pics.... are taken in singapore.... yup these place do exist in singapore.... im super shocked..... its at sentosa mind you.... really lovig that resort.... wish i was rich to stay there for at least a day to enjoy the beautiful view.... SIGH....... finally my 9 days of torture is done.... but tmr im still going to work.... 3 days.... then im off then.... work again.... sigh..... nursing is a never ending job..... oh well..... need to get a freaking life!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gtg sleep.... well more on prepare for the next big manutd game soon.....oh well..... ~missing someone.... 3 Bitch it out ~

exhausted! [06 Jan 2009|07:47pm] [ mood | tired ] working for 9 days straight is total exhausting.... they should make a ban this exhausting schedule..... im only at my 5th day.... and i got  4 more days to go.... but guess whats the best part?? i only have 1 day off at the end of the exhausting schedule.... sucks....... a new year..... a new beginning...... sigh... and im already tired of it..... ~ like someone says.... i need a break like totally..... sigh...... sitting here waiting for aaron and nizar to finish swimming.... gosh.... these two idiots can really swim.... and boy they have so much energy in them..... im lacking of energy..... the only energy i get is...... sleeeeeeep      zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz gtg bowling next!!! 0 Bitch it out ~

CONGRATS to ratna and idham.... =D [09 Dec 2008|07:45pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | pussycat dolls - i hate this part ] finally its all over!!! the wedding chaos i mean.... and finally i've updated this boring journal.... ahahhah thanks to all who came to wedding.... thanks love!! hmmmm...... finally bought the ipod i've been longing for SO LONG..... hahahaha hmmmm.... what else..... oh bonus is coming up... YEAH!! haahha like as if im getting so much..... hahaahah sigh..... 3 days off....weeee..... one more day to enjoy before WORK WORK WORK!!!! argh....... sucks.... been eating so much..... now getting fatter.... sucks...... was looking through old pics..... hahahaah GOSH!!! i was so KENTAL!!!! not that im cool now..... but gosh!!! im so disgusted at myself..... ahahahahahah its so fun to see old pictures.... see how much all of us grown.... from ugly ducklings to beautiful swans inside and out..... its amazing..... ahaahahah from my cat being so skinny now fat like a garfield.....ahahahahahahahahah goodness...... anyways..... need my sleep now.... see ya! 0 Bitch it out ~

i miss my cat!!! [20 Nov 2008|11:05pm] [ mood | blah ] send my cat to pet hotel for the wedding.... i miss her.... thinks she noes that she's going away.... she was so reluctant to get out from under the bed.... in the morning she miao-ed so much.... so not her..... I MISS HER TOO MUCH!!! sobs :'( ( i miss my smelly cat!! ) 3 Bitch it out ~

being sick.... [11 Nov 2008|02:59pm] [ mood | ~sick ] being sick sucks.... esp when everyone around you are working.... sucks.... hahahaha anyways.... finally.... or should i say dreadfully..... im a confirmed staff... dunnoe whether its good or not...... hahaahha means i have to help new staff around.... and i still dunnoe lots of things.... sucks..... a week to go till my sis wedding..... its getting nearer.... not that im dreading the wedding.... more like dreading the chaos sigh.... hmmmm i've been itching to get iPod classic lately..... can only get it once the wedding over.... or at the end of the year..... hmmmm...... which is like next month.... hahahaha so..... itchy..... hands cant take it.... ahahahahah any or how..... i dunnoe whats wrong with me..... should i just go for it? or should i just tell him off? sigh..... i dunnoe.... life has been very complicated lately.... and.... i dunnoe what to do.... sigh..... im scared..... sigh..... cant say it out...... neither do i know what it is either..... students in the ward..... good thing or bad? i dunnoe.... just have to wait and see...... soon.... well.... they wont know me and i wont know them... next week im on leave and then im doing night.... weee... *un-enthusiastically* sigh..... i dunnoe..... im just feeling so shitty.... dunnoe why.... maybe hormones... maybe im just sick.... sigh..... need rest.... thats all.... lets rest then.... zzzzzzzzz 0 Bitch it out ~

bored.... [29 Oct 2008|12:48am] [ mood | ~undetermined ] [ music | pussycat dolls - when i grow up ] bored.... afternoon shift later.... and im still awake.... sucks.... took this from friendster bullentin shit thingy..... BORED!!! 1. Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed? - i dunnoe..... no idea...... 2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning? - sigh.... so lazy to get my ass up..... sigh..... 3. Who was the last person you took a picture of? - MY BUNNY!!! oh... person ar.... hmmm my sec sch friends.... miss you guys lots..... 4. How often do you see your ex? - ermm.....long long long ago...... 5. Would you ever donate blood? - tried..... but i have no veins.... so sad..... 6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? - yep.... actually they are way better to have.... ahhahha like my BITCH! 7. Do you want someone dead? - nope...... 8. What does your last text message say? - 'want to cont? or what?' 9. What are you thinking about right now? - shit... i cant sleep.... tmr im afternoon shift.... shit!! 10. Do you wish someone was with you right now? - hmmmm i dunnoe..... 11. What time did you go to sleep last night? - 2am?? 12. Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now? - my sis bought from mango....i took it from her.... 13. Is someone in your mind right now? - someone who's im not thinking bout just now..... 14. Do you know what she/he is doing right now - sleeping i suppose..... 15. Who was the last person to text you? - aemin 16. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? - yep... definitely...... im a spoilt brat.... 17. What are you listening to right now? - atomic kitten-whole again 18. What's the lyrics of that song in ur mind? - abt me and whoever that someone is that can make me whole again..... 18. Did you sing at all today? - yep.... all day.... its a musical day for me.... =P 19. When's the last time you cried? -few days back?? 20. Who were you with yesterday? - me myself and i..... 21. Do you miss anyone? -yeah... my friends!!!! 22. Have you ever drank with your number one? -..............???? 23. If someone liked you right now what would you want them to tell you? - dunnoe..... 24. Do you want someone you can't have? - yeah.... sigh.... 25. When did you last talk to your brother or sister? -few minutes ago? 26. Where were you at 2:02 am this morning? -still waiting for it..... 27. What was the first thing you thought this morning? - gotta go find clothes for dinner and dance..... 28. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? - dont think so.... 29. Do you want to tell someone something? - not really..... 30. What do you want to tell him/her? - nth   bored.... think gonna force myself to sleep now.... sians..... WORK WORK WORK!!!!!! SIANS......... 1 Bitch it out ~

i'm OLD!!! [19 Oct 2008|06:58pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | kasey chambers - am i not pretty enough? ] that's my birthday cake.... specialised by my dearest sister.... "you're old" ( you're old..... ) 0 Bitch it out ~

happy birthday.... [31 Aug 2008|11:07pm] [ mood | emoSHIT ] [ music | brandy - have you ever? ] ( happy birthday denise... ) 2 Bitch it out ~

st james powerhouse! [20 Aug 2008|12:38am] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | chris brown - with you ] we were SUPER bored.... deciding where to go..... ( where to go.... hmmmmm.... ) 0 Bitch it out ~

~total madness [14 Aug 2008|12:10am] [ mood | emo ] [ music | leona lewis-better in time ] omg.... finally got the HUMONGOUS files from denise.... hahahaha this is total madness! ( TOTAL MADNESS ) 3 Bitch it out ~

~PH boredom.... [09 Aug 2008|07:50pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | john legend - ordinary people ] You Are The Star You represent the ultimate in truth and purity. Insightful and illuminating, you provide guidance for others. You also demonstrate unselfish, unconditional love. You posses many spiritual gifts, including the ability to heal. Your fortune: Your future is looking brighter by the day. The near future will be a time of both hope and healing. Luck is about to come your way, perhaps the best luck you have ever seen. Life is about to get a lot easier and much better! What Tarot Card Are You? ( BOREDOM!!!! ) 0 Bitch it out ~

yawn~ [23 Jul 2008|08:28pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | leona lewis-better in time ] working is tiring.... haha duh.... suddenly.... i miss all my friends.... pri..... sec.... poly..... ALL of them..... SIGH~~~~ im super broke... but hey pay's coming soon..... more online shopping for me.. yeah!! now i totally get lina with her online madness.... ahhahahaha coz im hook too..... oops! sigh~ ( have a little patience.... ) 1 Bitch it out ~

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